Facing Fear

I have three big fears. The first is too awful to write about, the second is burning to death in a house fire (but I suppose at least I would be dead) and the third is being made redundant. Anyone who knows me, will realise that catastrophizing is a skill I have honed into a super power, exploding anxiety bombs inside me continuously, driving me to do my best work, or be my ‘best self’ in the hope that I can somehow prevent inevitable (or perceived) horrors from catching up with me months, even years before they actually do (or don’t). Unfortunately my third biggest fear has come true, and I am now facing redundancy during the pandemic, and those anxiety bombs have escalated into overwhelming mushroom clouds.

Don’t misunderstand me. I am not going to curl up in the fallout. I’ve done this twice before. I take my iodine pills and get up. Please wish me luck for the future. I need it. Three redundancies in 13 years may be due to some sort of curse, but it sure does justify the catastrophizing. I like that word, but I could do without the curse.

7 thoughts on “Facing Fear

  1. Hi Cheryl, I heard you had been released too. It stinks, however don’t let it get you down. We are both better than that. Hope something turns up soon. Thinking happy thoughts for you.

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    • Hi Richie B! Yes, it is a shock, and I will really miss everyone. I’m sorry this happened to you too, but you are right. It’s probably the right time for both of us. Good luck to you too Richard. We should all meet up for a drink once this pandemic is over.

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