My mantra is not strong enough to fix this tumbling loop of broken down dreams. What was it I said, in the beginning? “The writer gives life to a story, the reader keeps it alive.”
Dear reader. Thank you for all that you have done, but I am a raging mess of emotion, numb and exhausted being smashed against life’s sharp edges. Its whirlpools and precipices flaying my creativity. I struggle to breathe, to find reason to claw my way back to the surface.
I need to take a break from writing. I am not well or skilled enough to juggle, stark reality with a dream as precious as Unbound Boxes Limping Gods. The writer is too exhausted to breathe life into these stories. I feel sorrow and remorse, but mostly want to sleep.
I will wake up one day, after the maelstrom has spat me out. I’ll look up and see a blurry angel, my muse, Alexand Merek. And just as she had done, when I was seventeen years old, she’ll whisper. “Come with me, sweetie.” I’ll take her hand and reply. “But you’re not real!” And she’ll say. “Of course I’m real. Do I look made up to you?”
Unbound Boxes Limping Gods will return after a break on Wednesday 1st September 2021 (Last issue Wednesday 23rd June) Please keep the stories alive by reading past issues. (Issue 1) or if you would like a challenge (Chronological stories) The broken writer can’t give life to a story, but the faithful reader can keep blowing on the ember, whilst she sleeps.
Everyone deserves their summer. I recognize the story behind your words too well, and they strike a chord in my very similar dilemma. With time, writing the servant becomes the master, and sometimes it makes a very bad master. Why do we do it? They say it is because we have to, but of late I’ve begun to question that; sometimes I look beyond the page and there are other things that are colourful and absorbing: it is vital we try them, too. I hope you are refreshed by your break, Cheryl, and I, like many others, would be eager for you to return, but, in a cliche, no pressure. Best wishes if now is your time to turn away.
Yes you have described this perfectly! I’m glad to be back, but the time out was definitely necessary. I hope you are well, and thank you. Best wishes to you too, Frederick.
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